Does it ever happen to you that in a moment's time, you get this gut-wrenching feeling of panic and anticipation. So much that it keeps you awake at the oddest hours of the night. Its interesting that every now and then (and it happens quite often), I lose that feeling of motivation, that breath of inspiration, the strong desire to push ahead, whatever you want to call it, and I go fearfully blank. And then comes the overwhelming feeling of not knowing what I'm supposed to do or where I'm supposed to go, not literally, but figuratively speaking. And this feeling of being "lost" will last for days and sometimes weeks on end. So it has me thinking...and writing, where do I go from here?
So here is where my journey of self-discovery continues...I reflect on things that have motivated me in the past and look to others' sources of motivation to help me once again realize the importance of it all, of what it is I am trying to accomplish, of what I am trying to achieve!
*sigh*
And you know what I discover after all of this? That I only needed a little reassurance that things will be okay, and life goes on, and blah blah blah. This I found through the simple messages, the easy presence of those who love me, of those who support me. To know that they will be there no matter what, supporting both my endeavors and continued uncertainty yet constant attempts at self-fulfillment.
That's all it was. geez.
Now I can go back to studying...
